made me realize,

One of my friends , made me realize, you used me as a rebound . The second you said that youd call me back , i knew somehting like this was gona happen, but since i still have feelings for you, i couldnt control myself so i pretended you were just gona call your friend or something. No , you called your girlfriend because you forgot. Then the next thing , you call me back and told me shes sleeping. & THATS why youre talking to me again after you call her? Because shes sleeping? What do i look like to you? But i know im stupid anyways for even talking to you last night. But if your girlfriend heard what you were saying to me, oh youd be dead meat wouldnt you .

I cant be anymore speechless ..

I say that i'm over it , but im not. i say that i dont like you anymore, i still do . It hurts to see you with someone else. The way you looked at me today, the way i looked at you just brought me flashbacks when we were still us. it didnt last long, maybe only like a month ? but the first few weeks i was picked up by you . i liked some guy in the beginning of the year, & he totally wasnt interested & i was hurt. but YOU picked me up back on my feeet, & showed me something that no other guy has showed me before, EFFORT . You made an effort to always keep me happy, to make me trust you, to make me like you & i didnt appreciate ANY of it. All the things you did for me. I blew you off when you were about to ask me . How heartless can i get ? & Now , i pay the price . Watching you 'love' her. I just want to ask you if you miss me, if you miss us. It hurts, why are you two working out, but we didnt? It seems like youre more happier than her? Why ? I feel as if i regret letting you go. I dont want to say anything because i dont want you think im jealous or that i want you back . So many unanswered questions ): i just want an answer ..

No one appreciates the shit i do for them , so dont expect shit from me .

divorce ,

"Half of all American children will witness the breakup of a parent's marriage. Of these, close to half will also see the breakup of a parent's second marriage."

Its difficult , to not only see your parents divorce , but to see the second marriage divorce. Its difficult to see that my half sister, will have to be in my footsteps experiencing what i had to. Its difficult to go through days not knowing where youll be going . Whether its moving in with other family members, or renting a house in a bad economy. Its difficult to hear that theres a possibility to leave a house that you truly fell in love with over the past year and is settled with it . Its difficult to see your mother, under a whole bunch of stress , and is constantly getting migraines. Its difficult to see that youre taking up more muscles to frown than to smile . Its difficult see that the man that your mother once loved, didnt take the effort to stop drinking. Its difficult to see a divorce, & I'm just here waiting to go through the whole process all over again .. Dont worry Mom. I have your back and ill support you. Alyssa dont worry, you still have me & i will show you what a big sister is .

Killing me softly ,

What to do what to do . I'm so lost , i dont know what to do . Its like a big part of me just lost itself . I dont understand why its been so long. I dont understand why it just wont come back . Is it giving me hints that im not wanted anymore? Whats going on ? Its like a whiplash of downfall . Bad thing after bad thing. Tears every night, more frowns than grins. Why ? Why cant i just be happy ? Why must i put on a fake smile all the time to keep from people asking me whats wrong ? Why cant THAT person ask me . Do they not have a clue ? Do they not want to ? So many questions to ask , yet none can be answered . So many things to say, yet cant be said. So many things to do , yet cant be done . Why ?! Why is there a limit . Why must i have to wait for the change , for the different routine. Why cant it just be over and done with . I'm not making sense , because this whole problem , is just a big jumbled mess filled with the unanswered . But all i can really do is just sit here , doing nothing . absolutely nothing. Waiting as the days go by , counting the days. Waiting for a call, text , IM , or whatever. I'm not sure what to do . An involuntary feeling inside of me . I feel as if i should be the bigger person once again , and just say something and talk to you . But i cant . I'm forcing myself, yet its killing me inside.

ughh ,

today was an okay day rofl. the good thing was MARK AND MARIVIC ARE A HAPPY COUPLE <3 yeahh , HOSA was interesting w/ nadia (: . Hm , 2nd day of grounding . 19 more days to go , ;P . blahh so many projects and studying , so byee !


i miss my bestfriend :/

The Definition

The definition of Friends -
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement.

Hm , support
Where's your support ? Thanks ,

ashley n !

ashley : I hooked up Joey and Laura
I hooked EJ and Jennifer
I'm a hoooker !

ryan : youre a hooker ?!

ashley : WAIT !


LOL I LOVEE HERR <333

VMAs

MANNN , did you see Kanye diss Taylor Swift ?! FUCKING ASSHOLE ! WTF MAN . Yeah sure Beyonce had a nice music video , but EVERYONE deserves a chance to fucking win an award. SO STFU ! You embarassed Taylor ]:< . Shes TALENTED , and she has cute meanings to her songs . PSH , man , that hella pissed me off . Because he thinks hes so all that that he can just jump on stage and diss Taylor . I bet you youre racist Kanye. You didnt want a country white girl win an award ! AND FOR PEOPLE WHO DISAGREE WITH ME I DONT NEED YOUR MEAN COMMENTS CUS IM JUST EXPRESSING MY THOUGHTS . Anyways , fuck Kanye . Aye Kanye, i have a diss for you . I DONT LIKE YOUR MUSIC . ITS A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT . , except for goodlife. LOL ! I support you Taylor ! <3

what , the , hell .

isnt it amazing how like our conversations just get dull and dull . I'm gona slowwwwly , stop doing everything first . soooo yeah !


anyways, ugh . so many projects . lamelamelame.
gaygaygay


but on the brighside ; i like joey dechavez :]

WHAT

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FRIED

RICE

MAAAAANNNN .



Volleyball today [x , & i can tell you , i am NOT good at serving !
& i cant find my stupid locker . fried ricing rice .

nae meng ;]

oh pish posh . I LOVE YOU MUCHOO GRANDEEE , BIEN BIEN . idk
ROFL . Whats taesbo ?

JUST WANTED TO POST THIS BLOG SAYING ;
i love jennifer more than she loves me .
kbye !

I'M A HIGH SCHOOLER .

Helll fucking YESSSS . I'm a lame freshman . BUT WHO CARES . ANYWAYS , my first day of school was freaking awesome ! I saw a few cute guys and i have a few classes with some too muahahaha . I didnt meeet a lot of people , i did but i didnt . Makes sense? I love my advisory teacher shes so hyper . HAHA . and she bulges out her eyes sometimes like i do ;P . Overall , i like my classes but i dont like my english teacher because hes gona make us read so many fucking boooks and he sounds so faggish . Hm second day , I LOVE having biology with anna cus i never had a class with her ! Um PE , i met a few sophomores cus most of the people in there are not freshmans . This girl i met was hella funnny LOL i have her in french , shes adorable . no homo . Um Health Science , my teacher is old and she grouped us together and i was with these two girls and Dexter , Tyler , and Richard . We had to huddle up very close to each other and she fucking wrapped us with food wrap and he we had to run around the class . OMG LOL . that was so funny . I'm excited to go to her class tomorrow. Block schedule is a little confusing , but im getting the hang of it . I just cant get used to the 83 minutes crap cus i cant stand it . ESPECIALLY IN MY COMPUTER BASED PROJECT CLASS . That old man does not shut up ! My geometry teacher is hella bomb , he has an accent too ;]. but yeah , southwest is awesome , im gona love this year :] . Too bad i dont have any classes with nadia tina and kathleeen ;P i love jennifer btw ! kbye !

I wish i can block myself out of everyones' lives right now . AFLSDJALFKSJD -.-

F T[S] .

Im never going there again , only with FAMILY or those 4 main chicks . Cus seriously , ive never felt so unwanted or like nobody gave a shit about me except for one person . When they see someone else they just abandon you like a toy. Or when I come back from a month out of town and NO ONE , takes the effort to chill , not even for 10 minutes . I mainly direct this to my friends that I hung out in the 7th / 8th grade range. I also really thank Michelle M for actually caring for how i felt . It proves to me that youre the realest out of em all . thats my last time there. I dont know if im overreacting , which i dont think i am , but people are f'd up nowadays. but whatever .

Wonderful Days of Vietnam

Here's some of Akira Phan's music. You may not be able to understand [ i dont ] , but the rhythm, beat, and sound is just catchy & i like it [x . obviously ive been vietnamified .
LAST THREE DAYS HERE ! Aw & WOO . Aw that i wont see my family for another 2 years . But WOO , i get to go through my regular lifestyle again <3 ANYWAYS , time to summarize what i did . So i got a straight perm and i couldnt fucking wash my hair for 4 motherfucking days . Two days after my perm we drove to this place called Phong Nha. How does it feel to go on a 8 hour car ride with a crappy bus filled with 35 family members, one of them smells like shit's shit on the bumpy roads in Vietnam? Do the math . OH YEAH . Before we left , i walked onto the bus and sat on the 3rd to last row , by myself. And my cousin Beo on my grandpas side comes on and out of ALL THE FUCKING SEATS ON THE BUS he comes and sits next to me -.- . Hes the boy with the awful body odor . Like seriously , it smells worse than cow maneuver . So i was like "OH i forgot something !" and i jumped over him and ran out the bus and he yelled , "ITS MY ARMPITS ISNT IT" so then i ran into the house and ran back out and i sat with Thu , my other cousin . Om 6 , my uncle was across from me and like Beo looked behind and Om 6 didnt have anyone next to him so hes like "Oh illl goo sit next to him !" and im like DU MA to my cousin and shes like "lets go sit there" so yeah ROFL .The hotel we stayed at was CRAP . I slept in the room with like 20 poeple , the walls were supported with TAPE , and rats were crawling and running around on the ceiling ALL NIGHT LONG. The tour we took was pretty cool . We had to go up 500 steps up this mountain just to see more caves . i was devastated cus i was so tired lmao ! Hm , I went to the beach three times . The third time me and my cousins digged 2 small holes like 1 feeet away from each other and covered it with plastic bags , and camoflauged it by putting a little amount of sand on top so it doesnt collapse . Then i invited Chi Loan over and im like "come over here!" so she walked over and she fell into the hole ROFL . Then my cousin Bon pulled her up to help her and pulled her into the other hole LMAO ! that was SO fucking funny. I wish i got it on video . But then we fixed up the holes again , and we invited my cousin Thu but she wouldnt go into the holes , but i was recording. And like this random boy is runnning and he fell into the one hhole then the next LMAO AND I GOT IT ON VIDEO . Which ill post on youtube when i get back. I went clubbing and i saw Akira Phan , this one famous guy . Yeah i did a whole bunch of stuff and right now im so lazy LOL . Hmm i went to a wedding , and i saw 15 other weddings on my way to the wedding . My cousin Son dropped a cell phone on the floor and the screen wasnt working anymore , then he crashed his dads motorcycle and he has to repeat the 9th grade. It wasnt a good week for him LOL. We watched hella lscary movies . I kinda learned how to play poool . Right now im in Saigon . yesterday there was so many tears ]: . I miss my family . Sigh . But its okay , ill see them in two years . ]: . It was so sad. My aunts kept telling me to come back in two years , and i have to . I love them D: . I regret not wanting to go in the first place because i had a BLAST . Hm , we played cards ALOT there. It was fun :] . There was awhole lot more things i did but im so lazy . I shall post up pictures when i get home !

first four days

HEYTHERE :] . Its been four days since ive been in this stinky place. Surprisingly, ive been on everyday since i've been here . But only for a small amount of time , besides today. Which is gona change because after today i give up on keeping in touch daily because i feel as if others arent putting in effort as much as i am , so idgaf , ill endure it :] . Im planning on not going on until i get to Saigon which is the LAST '4 days im staying . So if you DID put in effort , which im not gona name who did and who didnt. Thanks and im sorry :] . The next few weeks will be fast if you endure it with me :D ! ANYWAYS ABOUT MY FOUR DAYS . FIRST DAY ; It was okay. I barely talked because i had no idea what to say . My vietnamese is horrible now , and i blame no one but myself for that. Second day ; I went to the market with my cousin and my other cousin . I forgot what else i did xD . Third day I fell asleep at like 5 PM and didnt wake up til freaking 5 AM . TWELLLVEEE HOURS OF SLEEP . WHOOOOHOO ! . Score ;] . The fourth day, which was yesterday, i went to Hoi An * and walked around with my cousin Kawni and Chi Loan . Chi Loan is awesome . Shes always been my fav. cousin from here <3 ;] . We went to the beach for half an hour . All we did was put our feet in the water because we didnt have clothes to swim . oh well . TOday is my fifth day and its sunday , 10:10 am over here right now . Everyday we always wake up early . Around the range of 5-7 am . They also sleep early too . But last night i slept late with everyone at like 11. That was the latest. Today i think we're going to the beach for a longer time , but im not sure if we are yet. This computer keeps randomly putting in these marks -> "'" . Its annoying the crap out of me cus i have to go back and erase them . So if you still see them where theyre not supposed to be there, bare with me . uh theres a lot of bugs around all the time and its so gross . The floor is constantly dirty . the showers are so creepy i have to make my mother shower with me . its just ew . lol ! but i cant wait to go to the hotel in saigon , its cleaner . MUCH cleaner . and theres tv ! so yeah . bye for now ;]

layover

So , im in Taiwan right now . And here , its 7:33 AM thursday . I'm 15 hours ahead of Vegas, but when i go to Vietnam its 14 hours . Lol . Hmm , the planes not here yet. I arrived in taiwan around like 6 . I had no sleep . I watched movies . I barely had food. IM EXHAUSTED . I heard that my cousin got internet at his house now , where im staying at . So ill be on . but idk if its true or not so we'll see. But if it is true then ill go on once in awhile since vietnam is a handful . I feeel like dropping on the floor and sleeping . I need sleeep . Hm well i'll write another blog the next time i get the chance to go on ! kbye ;]

Gone Agaaain .

yep , im leaving to vietnam in like 15 hours . ughhh . i just came home like at 5 too ]; . IT feels so good to be home , momentarily . -.- . Hm , im going over to michelles in like 7 hours . Why am i not sleeeping ? I do not know ROFL . Yep , so yeah :] ! kbye xD

July 13 , 2009 8]

Day Six - Woke up early , got ready and went to Shakeys ! OMG that place is the BOoOoMBBB . I won 406 tickets ;] . So i got a few useless stuff LOL . Anyway , the ride back was okay . It was longer than the ride there. I watched Step Up , and 1/4 of Twilight because i got too tired and passed outtt ! Now im home and i feel so happy for being here <3 Being gone from home is soooo depressing. Too bad i have to leave tomorrow for 3 1/2 weeks LMFAO . Greeeat -.-

July 12 , 2009 x.x

Day Five - I went to DISNEYLAND :] . The happiest place on Earth . Too bad it wasnt so happy for me . First I couldnt fucking find Stitch so i couldnt take a picture with him ]; . I almost cried . Then I didnt get to ride the Tower of Terror . After that , I couldnt find a shirt from Up . So i came home with nothing from disneyland . HOW HURTFUL IS THAT . OH AND i had to sit in the back on Splash Mountain . WTF WHATS THE FUN IN THAT ?! GOSH . Gaygaygay . I dislike that place now . I already went in April with the musical department . Hmm , what i did like was the turkey legs ;] . Hm , yeah .

July 11 , 2009 ;P

Day Four - Todaay , well actually yesterday but i didnt get the chance to write it , i did almmost NOTHINGGG ! We ate Pho for brunch and then we went around the little saigon place and i got boba ;P . After my parents and my sister went swimming but i just stayed in the hotel room and watched tv and computer and stuff . I watched that Another Cinderella Story on Disney Channel . That movie is cute ;] . We ate Black Angus for dinner and we checked out Knotts Berry Farm . it doesnt look so big , but the rides look AWESOME O: ! Hm, yeah yesterday wasnt so exciting . But today IS exciting which is DISNEYLANNDD ! be jealous bitches . I'll write abuot it tomorrow since i might not be on tonight . kbye !

July 10 , 2009 ;D

Day Three - TODAY , i went to seaworld ! :] , i woke up like at 6ish and i had to get ready and everything . I felt like i was going to school Dx . Anyway , we ate at ihop and then we drove to san dieeego . Man it was exciting ! At first i was hella mad that Journey to Atlantis was closed , but then it opened up later that day ! :D . I rode it for the first time , that ride was worth the wait . We watched Shamu first and it made me miss michelle cuhs if she was with us , shed sit in the soak zone with me ]; . michelle if youre reading this ; I expect a massage and a back scratch when i get back >:] . I saw turtles , and sea lions OMG I FED THEM . Theyre so fiesty ;D I love them . I saw dolphins and penguins and whales and sharks and blah blah blah . I also kept 4D glasses :D ! Hm , today was too long to explain xD . My stepdad and i sat on the 3rd row on the dolphin show , we got freaking wet and it was so cold . omg x] . Hmm , what else .. my sister was hella enjoying it . I bought souvenirs ! but theyre all for other people xD Except for one . lmao . Ummmm , I love the seamore and clyde show . Its so funny . At the beginning , the janitor guy was like dancing to music and theme songs and stuff ROFL . It was hilarious when he did SOS by the jonas brothers & the hannah montana theme song . Pictures will be posted when i get back ;P , Even though theres not much of me , more of the animals that i saw . I wish i got to see Sea Otters ]; , oh welll . hmm came back to the hotel . And it made my night to go onto myspace and seee a few comments from people that i love :] <3 I love it how troy writes me a comment a day saying all this stuff ! its so cute . and yeeeah :] . I feeel loved . kbye ! ill write tomorrow !

July 9 , 2009 >:]

Day Two - Today i woke up around 9ish , and we went to eat at some mexican restaurant . After that we went swimming and got a tan and all that . I think i got darker O: lmfao . I just took a shower right now . Hmm today was relaxing . Tonight we're gona eat Red Lobster and go watch a movie :] . Soooo , yeah . Keeep updated on this blog :] .k im back ! So i went to the movies , watched proposal for the 3RD time LOL . That movie never gets old <3 So right now its Day 3 , 7:23 AM , but ill write about it later since im going to SEAAAWORLDD ! woot , shamuuuuu ! kbye !

July 8 , 2009 O:

Day One - CALIIIFORNIAAAA ! Woke up at like 5:45 am , did leave vegas til like 7ish . Came in at 11:30 :] ! The ride went by fast because i was watching Twilight & listening to music xD . We went to that Asian Garden Mall . I BOUGHT LIKE 4 STUFFED ANIMALS LOL ! and they were so cheap ! omg i was so happpy <3 ! ^^ . We checked in the Hilton Hotel and boy were there a lot of problems LOL . First , soemthing happened with the credit card or whattever . next , our room wasnt even cleaned . Then we got another room , but it wasnt our requested floor/view . Then , we locked ourselves out of the room LMAO ! I went to the Jacuzzzii :] . It was relaxing . Haaha i still miss everyone , even though its been a day . We might go to Universal Studios tomorrow O: . I got a surprise for someone :] . Heehee <3 I'll write Day Two , tomrorow ! OH btw , i just came back from this place called The Gardenwalk . It reminded me of townsquare D: , so i got sad lmao . Ahhh i miss everyone wtf mann . ITS BEEN A DAY . im such a big baby , as michelle would call me [x . Kay i'll write more tomorrow .

Orleans ,

Today for Fourth of July , i went to the Orleans with my cousins . At first we went to fashion show & my cousin and i bought matching stussy shirts rofl . We went to the Orleans to watch The Proposal . We snuck into hangover in the meantime because it was too early to go into the theater ;P . We freaking got caught , lol but christine saved us . anyway , the proposal was a very cute movie :] ! I suggest you watch it . & ICE AGE 3 ! That movie is BETTER than Up ! ROFL after we watched the movie we ate at that sushi place and like my cousin Cecelia said the most stupidest shit ever LMFAO , it made me laugh for like freaking 5 minutes straight . She asked , "Where are you going in Cali ?" I said , "LA" . She said, "WAIT ! arent we in california right now ?!" Christine and I looked at each other and bursted out laughing ! Omg ROFL ! Las Vegas is SOOOO in california . Funny shit man . Well my fourth of july was funny . :]

4th of Julllyy , -.-

SO fourth of july weekend is coming up right ? DO YOU KNOW WHAT I PLANNED ?! On friday , it was LAURA and MICHELLE day . And on saturday , i was supposed to come over & hang since my parents were gona go watch that vietnamese concert , and so was hers ]: . i was probly gona sleep over . BUT ARE THESE PLANS EVEN GONNA OCCUR ?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO . you know why ? Cus my cousins picked the wrong weekend to come >< . i mean its fine if they come , but theyre making me stay all the days they are or else theyd "hate" me or whatnot. ugh , im not picking friends over family or anything but like my cousins are just so selfish sometimes . Especially the one in canada. He always gets mad at me when i dont come to visit like during spring break. Its like if hes the boss of me or something -.- , im not sure if everyone sees it that way in Canada. but i dont think theres much of a difference between the US and Canada. You always compare the two countries -.- . its SO annoying . And then you get mad at me for me saaying that Christine is my favorite cousin . WTF seriously ? Must you control my opinions? Christine and i have a connection that me and you dont have . We're both girls and we share more interest than you and i do . We talk about things that you wouldnt understand . but thats cus we're girls and we have a diffferent maturity level then you do . COME ON youre fucking 15 and you act like youre 6 . GROW THE FUCK UP . AND you still sleeep with your mom ... w t f .. ? Anyway , I'm older now . and i hate to be hypocritical and say i've changed . But its a drastic change from when i was nine to now . I dont play yu gi oh no more. im not interested in those games like WOW , or all those stuff . I WAS a tomboy , but im not anymore . Thats my change . I grew out of it , and now its your turn to grow out of your immatureness. Ugh it would've been easier if all of you guys came in august or something . I really wanted to spend the weekend with michelle since i did last year ]: . GAYYY . kbye !

two events ,

oh man i forgot about my blog for a moment . Well i went to Ashleys potluck on June 27 haha . It was really fun , but some of it was boring ;P . It was my last time seeing ashley , jennifer , mimi , & vivian ]: . Well ima see jennifer this friday for my pictures anyway. so at least thats one person xD . umm , then yesterday i went to go hang out with my bestest michelle . The day overall was pretty boring until we went on that hotel 626 LOL . she fucking ran out of the room screaming like a little girl . LMAO ! . wimp right ? just kidding i was more afraid then she was . she was pigging out on M&M's . Well we went to townsquare to watch transformers 2 AGAIN , with her lil bro and chon . Id have to say those few hours there was pretty awkward to me . haha . Every day is getting closer to me leaving to vietnam , how depressing . I'm gona miss all my bestfriends like a bitchhh man . OH and i just found out my cousin smokes . WTF ? shes fucking younger than me ! ugh . gayness . OH AND , this guy is a fucking dickhole . LOL . i should be blogging about these in another post , butt im too lazy . so yeah . kbye !

Why are you acting so different?

Cuhs things changed . People Change .

Oh Fuck you . -_____________-

transformers 2 !

Omg today i went to watch Transformers 2 with my BESTest Michelle :] . At first i picked her up at like 11ish and we watched Fired Up at my house ;P . Omg LMAO pretty homo moments man . well it was all her not me ;D . "Youre comfortable" . LOL she chose me over the pillow because it wasnt "comfortable" psssshh she was laying on me cus she LIKEES it LOL ! Aw shes gona kill me for saying all this xD . Anyways we went to Red Rock at like 4 but the 4:10 imax experience was sold out so we got the 4:40 one and had to wait a big freaking line just to get into the theaters . We were scared we wouldnt get seats LOL , but good thing we did . Michelle freaaaking chose the 3rd row up front and my neck sores now xD . BUT THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME MAN @)#*&%@!!!&%%&^#$ . I SUGGEST YOU WATCH IT !! Michelle was having orgasms staring at Megan Fox. FREAK right ? HAHA ! ^^ , oh and she dropped her phone in my toilet LMAO . and i thought she'd learn her lesson. HAA ! ROFL i love you fag ;] Oh and nice note you left me on my phone ! heeehe . i gave her my old phone just in case lmaaao. but the screens broken . Maaaan obviously i had fun , and time flies by fast when youre having fun ! Well i hope i chill with her friday or something before she leaves to cali for some weddingg !! kbye ! <3 i had a blast !

paaathetic !

HAHA had to blog about serious stuff now . Anywayy, wowww dude like seriously ? I'm fucked up for that ?! LMAAAO thats fucking hilarious ! talk about jealousy? maybe? no wonder why you didnt tell me directly in the first place. And no , i dont think its fucked up because thats one of the littlest things you can seriously get pissed off about . Why does it bother you so much ? i know why . like i said at first , jealousy . HA . You fucking act like you havent done fucked up things to me before, but trust me , you have so many times where i dont have the time to trip , because its S T U P I D . Just like your reaction to the situation . and you think im pathetic ? and you think im OVER DRAMATIC? look at the way youre acting . HAAAA people crack me up .

adventuredome !

HAHA today , well yesterday was AWESOME ! omg haha we all went to adventuredome . we all as in , vivian , jennifer , mimi , ashley , chris , jim , and billy ! at first it was vivian me and mimi . LOL spongebob ride was awesome <3 it was heartbreaking news to hear that the inverter, slingshot, and the wet ride was closed ]: but we still had ooober fun LOL. we spotted the rest of them while we're at the disk-o ;D . lmfaoo , WE EVEN GOT MATCHING SHIRTS ! Everyone has the words "BESTFRIENDS" but each person picks their own colors and two letters, so BE was mimi , ST was me, FR was vivian, IE was jennifer, and NDS was ashley :D ! And on the back were our names/nicknames; mimi:mimi , laura:ninja, vivian:vivianbologna, jennifer:Mrs.hero JJ, ashley:weirdo . HAHA ! omg <3 wow , and everyone got their animals that they wanted except for me , so jim, billy, and chris all pitched in to buy me the spiderman necklace i wanted >:D ! i love those guys <3 !! Anyway , we rode the roller coaster ride like 4 times , and vivian bought a picture . Man i would write more but its 12:36 and im tired >< . time to move on to my second blog . TODAY WAS AWESOME ! cant wait til tomorrow to watch transformers two with the best ;D

short

WOW , haha thats fucking AMAZING! youre a fucking dumbass >< . we were just getting there until you have to act all bitchy and erase everything . like wtf ? was it just a little phase of yours or some shit ? Cus we're back to where we FUCKIN started thanks to you . You're ridiculous . next time you ask me to do something like that ima say NO . That was a complete waste of my damn time and effort . SO THANKS . wtf -.- .

lmao ,

i think this lil kid is cute . i just felt like putting this up here .

Square of Towns !

todaay I went to townsquare ! BUT BEFORE THAT . last night , me and nadia made a bet to see who would stay up the longest , and guess who lost ? SHE DID ! HAHAH ! whaaatta looooser <3 anyways , i slept at 5:30 AM , and woke up at 10:30 . Thats five hours . then like i went to townsquare for 6 hours and there was so much walking D: . i watched up !! <3 OMG thats such a cute movie ! And i watched the hangover again LOL i love that movie too its so fuckin funny . Um but besides the movies , eh today was eh . lol wasnt so much fun . We went to guitar center and john , rina , michelle m , & I were all next to each other just playing random stuff. even though i couldnt even hear myself play rofl . Hmm , but yeah today was kinda boring actually haha . But at least i got to talk to Tina alot , kinda lmfao . I cant wait til tuesday though . ADVENTURE DOME! <3 . i hope on monday i can chill with bestest . Ahh leaving to Vietnam in 29 days , ]: . but leaving to cali in 17 days >< spend time with me !

olive garden

So today was Michelle M's birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU OLD PERSON ! :D ! Anywaay, so she invited me to Olive Garden with Rina , Rae , Tabie , Michelles parents , and her self :] . Maaaan did i stuff myself . I ate the Tour of Italy . Its like lasagna & alfredo pasta ! i was so full , then i had to eat cake too xD but it felt good to see all those people again . Especially Rae . We sure catched up today <3 . But tomorrow we shall some more ! woo bring back the old times maaan :) , i sure miss it . I love you guys ! Seeee you tomorrow at townsquare , which ill blog about tomorrow :]

summer days ,

So like yesterday was June 18 , and i went to the Spring Valley park :] . At first i had to wait for jennifer in front of the high schoool , HOPING id see ariana , but of course i wouldnt -___- . Anywho , and there were a LOT of people taking summer school . It was crazy ahah . Then i saw jennifer and man did i miss that chick ! xD , she ran and attacked me heehee . THERE JENNIFER YOURE IN A BLOG LOL . i love that dork ♥. I thought it would only be 4 of us going to the park , but i was wrong ! I WAS SO GLAD THAT THOSE PEOPLE CAME WITH US ! So it was ; Jennifer , Ashley , Vivian , Arturo , Naiyana , Brittany , Diane , Billy , Tyler , Valentina , John , Ian , & Ray [IM SORRY !] . We got helllaa wet . Arturo took a water bottle and kept wetting us O:< . but then i stole it and started to have like a war with him since he had another water bottle [x . Then we started teaming up and getting hella people when they werent looking . OMG then there was this one time where like John told me to get his cousin Ray , and like i had a GINORMOUS water balloon & a water bottle . So i was gona dump that water bottle on him but he squeeezed it off my hands so i wasnt looking and i threw the water ballooon THAT WAS HUGE , and it hit his nuts ! D: , IM STILL SORRY LOL ! , he had to sit down for awhile . There was this other time when i had another big water balloon and jennifer attacked me and we were on the floor fighting for it , so i put it at her face and broke it LOL so the water went all over her . it was so fuckinn funny :D , omg yesterday was just an awesome day , there were so many funny parts to explain but id take up the whole page. LIKE OMG IT WAS WEIRD . Vivian , Jennifer , and /i were like standing at this one spot and the water just turned off , and then all of a sudden me and vivian yelled at the SAME EXACT tone , "HEY!" LOL it was so funny . After all this we went to McDonalds and i had chicken nuggets :] , and then it was just me , vivian , jennifer , ashley , and that stupid billy kid walked back to ashleys :D . I was playing guitar while jennifer , ashley , and billy were blabbing about hero and all those stupid korean celebrities . When jennifer and billy left, we decided to go back to McDonalds again and something hella freaky happened. After i ordered my Quarter Pounder, this random old guy that ive NEVER seen before , starts speaking to me in VIET . First of all , how did this old guy know i was viet ? and like he asked me if i had a CAR ! i waas like O.O , and i couldnt eat LOL i was too scared . Omg that was horrific. But yeah , i had a BLASSST yesterday . I love you guys <3

-___- ,

i hate it how everything is going so well . & like you think that nothing can possibly go wrong. But then just ONE little thing can mess up everything. then on top of that , theres ANOTHER bad thing that happens and ANOTHER , so its just a pile of BAD news ganging up on you and youre confused on how to feel. but then it gradually gets better then you feel as if nothing can happen again . Wow this is one stupid roller coaster. I hate it ><

choi oiii ! vietnam <3

kay , sooo theres a lot of stories that i have of vietnam. I'm really excited to go there , yet im alsdfjlsj about it . Which it'll tell you WHY im ajdlafkjsdl about it on the blog below :] . anywayy, when i go , july 15, it'll be my 5th time going, and everytime i go i have a blast. like seriously, it hit me how much fun you can have with family . the first few days im shy and like not used to it , but then after that like feeling . its so fun . my cousins and i are all constantly doing something . im N E V E R laying in bed doing nothing. its always something. for example it was like my 3rd time there and we went to go to my cousins school that was right down the street. Obviously its a poor village that i stay at so theres cattles that poop on the grass field . So we were playing soccer with a HARD plastic ball , while dodging poop and running in WET damp grass. Omg , i came home with grass stuck on my ear LOL . And then last time i went my little 5 year old cousin would squeeeze my boobs and run and id have to chase her. Omg theres so many memories there , i love my cousins. if it werent for them , i wouldnt have that anxiety feeling right now just talking about it . I just wish that i spoke vietnamese at my house so i would have no problems speaking and understanding it there. Oh well , i'll just have to 'endure' it until i get used to the environment. Wish me luck . i hope those old 20 year old nasty ugly ass guys dont hit on me . LOL its horrible !

time of my life ,

haha , so its SUMMER . WOO ! welll for me not really woo cuhs this summer is really boring , but right now with life , everything is going REALLY good :] . non stop smiles for me. & like the only thing ive really gone out to do is go to red rock , and michelles house twice. thats so bull LOL . but id really have to give a special thanks to michelle nguyen cuhs lately shes been making my summers wonderful ! especially today our conversation on the phone & aim HAHA ♥ . i love you best. shes an awesome person :] . but anyway, i really think that if no one leaves me anythiing nice while im in vietnam ill fucking kill yyou all . . JK lol . but like itd be nice if people left me voicemails, text messages, comments , messages , and all that. EVEN LETTERS from the mail would be wonderful . because i feel like when i come back , people will feeel like , "oh laura hasnt been here for awhile so ill just replace her for now til she comes back" . and i honestly dont wana feeel that way. thats whats been bothering on my why i dont want to really go . One , cuhs ill miss all my bestfriends and stuff [mainly mdn] , and that i dont wana get replaced . and like i hate how im not really updated on peoples' lives UNTIL i come back. So please, let me know that im still loved and in peoples' minds while im gone ]: . and yeah . so far people arent making any plans with me to go to places. -___- . wtf mannn its summer. but oh well its vegas, what is there to do ? At least im going to the spring valley park this thursday :) , gona have hella fun. too bad ariana isnt gona be there ]: . wow this blog has a lot of subjects LOL . ANYWAYS back to vietnam ! , wait ill just post another blog about it LOL ! kbye !

Heads up !

LOL :] , this is not really a venting one buttt, id like to let all of you people that read my blogs, that from july 15th - august 10th , ill be one like probably once a week because ILL BE IN A FREAKING THIRD WORLD COUNTRY -__- . therefore, ill write about my time to let you guys know how im doing. But for now, ill probably be writing venting blogs soon . This is gona start turning out like my days of sumemr . kay bye ! &hearts'

shit talkers ,

sorry , ima be blogging A LOT since a lot has hit me . but one , ive been told that this complete asshole that i saw as my 'BROTHER' has been talkin shit about me . saying to this friend of mine not to hang out with me too much cuhs im 'psychotic' ?
and saying that i hang out with the most weirdest people ? fuck you with my life dude. if youre gona talk shit about me and my friends, say it to my damn facee. you effing chink [ not racist, cuhs i happen to be asian myself ] . liek seriously, first and fourth period, you constantly talk to us . so if you think we're like a fucking freak show then dont talk to us ? plain and simple . so fuck fuck fuck fuck you . you and your drinking and partying habits are gona make you end up working minimum wage at mcDs . haha. and if you got my friend talking crap about me too , youre really low , you turned her against me. so thanks ! and if you two are to read this and know its you two ? , id like to tell you two to go move to afghanistan and make those 2328108 babies you two wanted to have. P A T H E T I C !
haha whatever :) .

'finna, ts, shaaaat"

I am usually not some type of walking grammer book , but this shit is really annoying . Why cant you people just say , "shit" or "gona" or SERIOUS. "are you cereal?" NO I AM NOT A CEREAL OKAY . i am a human being . Some of these sayings and slang words are freaking stupid . And when youre talking verbally and you say "are you going to ts today?" that just makes me want to scream right in your face. WOULD IT KILL YOU TO SAY TOWNSQUARE . OR even when you verbally say "LOL" . at the moment, youre not on the cyber life. Geeez, these things annoy me . theyre like pet peeeves of mine , besides inviting yourself and etc. And spell shit right man , its S.H.I.T . not shaaat or shheeeeeeee or any of those retarded spelling. BE CORRECT FOR ONCE . Peace out , im finna go sleeep

^ doesnt that sound so stupid ?

lifes not a fantasy ? guess again .

they say that 'happily ever afters' like cinderella is justt a fiction. HA well not in my life. but its not a happily ever after , its a NASTY, UGLY , HIDEOUS THINNG called my STEPMOM . omg she makes me want to kill . She is literally one of those stepmoms from those fairytales. She ruined my life. Just before my dad met her , i was at my dad's more than my moms. i loved my dad to death and i always wanted to see him , BUT THEN he meets her and he fucking falls in love with her . First of all dad, she maybe 20 soemthing but she is an ugly fuck that looks like shes 70 . Dad if you want a young hot wife, dont look at that shit . MY MOM is 5 billion x hotter than your bitch will ever be. but too bad you lost my mom . ANYWAY , this dumbnut always gets me into fucking trouble. she yells at me , and does the most horrible things to me when my dads not around. and wen i tell him he doesnt believe me . he says its a "misunderstanding". YOURE ASIAN WITH BIG EYES. I WOULD TELL YOU TO OPEN THEM AND LOOK WHERE WE'RE STANDING DADDIO . Your uglyass wife is in between our father daughter relationship . its too late now , you cant do anything about it . you took her side over your own daughter. now thats sad. i didnt believe my mom when she told me you never cared much for me when i was young , now its all coming back to me. thanks "dad" .

"wife"

friends come , friends go . some apologize & some just forget about it . well i have a problem . theres a friend of mine that we used to be really close even if we didnt see each other much but our friendship still meant something. but all you care about is your girlfriends and you just isolate all your friends away except just you and your girlfriend. its nice that you love her and all that but its stilll better to just keep in touch with us. including me , you faded from me, and you KNOW you did, yet you apologized , said youd get close, but look where we're standing. i bet you dont even remember anything about me anymore. apologize apologize apologize. thats all you do . but you dont even do anything. some friend you are . and when your girlfriend walks out on you , you'll probly have NO ONE to turn to except one friend from your school . and soon you might even lose her too . so great job pal . faded memories.

Middle School .

Do you remember elementary school? You worked all the way to become the top dogs of the school, and when youre finally all the way at the top youre like , "DANG , im a fifth grader. i rule this school" but then youre scared of next year; MIDDLE SCHOOL. And you worked that much just to be in the bottom again , in a whole new school with new things. Then when you worked three years with the new experiences, boys, drama, homework. Now youre an 8th grader. Theres 12 days left of 8th grade left .. and everyone is splitting up . You think about how amazing the three years were. Even if there was a year where you hated it, youll still miss it . I mean , youre only a kid once. In just one snap , youre growing so fast. I know forsure im going to miss those who arent gona be with me next year. What if you fade from them? I'm gona miss everyone. How they treated me, how i treated them. I'm going to miss Orchestra; working together to keep that pulse, that beating 'heart' . Going on trips like Disneyland and Universal Studios. I'm going to miss my orchestra teacher. The only teacher that seem to understand a kid's brain , how theyre thinking , and she's not afraid to show her true kid side. Only in her 20's , mature, but fun. Inspirational . Its crazy how you think that youre no longer going to school for 9 months with the friends you care about and hang out with. The thought of growing up . The thought of fading from everyone. The though of not being with those who have been there for you for all 3 years. Its insane. Its sad. I'm gona miss Ashley Ng, Ariana Grabowski, and Alexa Deguzman the most . Thats f'sure. Even though they cant read this right now , its true. You guys + those who are going to SW with me are the people who makes me actually want to go to school everyday . I love you guys <3 . Ima miss everyone next year >< .

Ashley B.

Do you remember elementary school? You worked all the way to become the top dogs of the school, and when youre finally all the way at the top youre like , "DANG , im a fifth grader. i rule this school" but then youre scared of next year; MIDDLE SCHOOL. And you worked that much just to be in the bottom again , in a whole new school with new things. Then when you worked three years with the new experiences, boys, drama, homework. Now youre an 8th grader. Theres 12 days left of 8th grade left .. and everyone is splitting up . You think about how amazing the three years were. Even if there was a year where you hated it, youll still miss it . I mean , youre only a kid once. In just one snap , youre growing so fast. I know forsure im going to miss those who arent gona be with me next year. What if you fade from them? I'm gona miss everyone. How they treated me, how i treated them. I'm going to miss Orchestra; working together to keep that pulse, that beating 'heart' . Going on trips like Disneyland and Universal Studios. I'm going to miss my orchestra teacher. The only teacher that seem to understand a kid's brain , how theyre thinking , and she's not afraid to show her true kid side. Only in her 20's , mature, but fun. Inspirational . Its crazy how you think that youre no longer going to school for 9 months with the friends you care about and hang out with. The thought of growing up . The thought of fading from everyone. The though of not being with those who have been there for you for all 3 years. Its insane. Its sad. I'm gona miss Ashley Ng, Ariana Grabowski, and Alexa Deguzman the most . Thats f'sure. Even though they cant read this right now , its true. You guys + those who are going to SW with me are the people who makes me actually want to go to school everyday . I love you guys <3 . Ima miss everyone next year >< .

letting goo

I've been through situations where i've held on to someone , but i ended up with nothing. i was told to fight for something that i love , and i did . but yet, i ended with nothing. And now , when I get into the same situation , i thought id learn my lesson with the past , but i didnt. I'm still holding on , i think of you every so often , but every so often turned out to be everyday . I miss everything you did to make me happy. I was living the good life, and in just ONE blink of an eye, E V E R Y T H I N G disappeared right from my hands. You , my freedom , my life . I always never stopped liking you, even when you told me all you want is to be "friends" . Is that your excuse? Are you just gona dump me and leave me here with nothing ? I actually liked you , when all those girls out there didnt . You made me happy, you were my first real relationship when we only had a thing. But now i just sit here, forced to just think of the memories, knowing i cant EVER go back to the way everything was. Its all memories now , nothing more . I cant let go .

Right Choices ..

right choices . hmm , what are right choices? when will you know theyre right ? how do you know theyre right? These questions of right choices, its mind-boggling. Sometimes i feel as if i made the completely wrong choice by taking that oppurtunity. and sometimes i made the right choice because it'll be a new experience. But no one knows the future, am i gona regret this choice? this almost always pops in my mind. but its all too late now because i made that choice, and i cant take it back . maybe itll be a good experience, maybe it was a complete stupid choice. but it has its advantanges. I dont knwo , honestly , we'll see.. Thanks for listening, even though you have no idea what my choice was or what this blog is mainly about, but you can get a good idea.

Rebound.

Before you start reading this im going to use a codename so i wouldnt review anyone . codenames = sir coke . and sir pepsi xD . OKAY here ; Do you ever feel like someone only comes to you , or talks to you , when the person they normally talk to isnt there? Hm , well i do . For the past couple of months I've been feeling like im only sir cokes' rebound . When sir pepsi isnt around, sir coke just comes and talks to me. At the beginning of the 8th grade year (mid 2008) , sir coke was with me everywhere at school . We were like still , the best of friends. But then all of a sudden sir pepsi comes around and they started to get closer. Yeah im not a hogger, so i wouldnt get pissed off at that, but it got worse. And a lot worse. Sir coke never would like walk with me and talk like we used to . I've talked to sir coke about it alot , but all she has said was " i know , actions speak louder than words. i dont need you to tell me when i can already see it " , tf? .. and at the happiest place on earth , sir coke hung out with ME because guess what? Sir pepsi isnt in the music department, therefore she wasnt there. I've been there for sir coke so many times. I've been there to influence sir coke to stay above the influence, ive been there to listen to sir cokes problems, ive been there when the crowd was doing stupid things, but i was there to be diffferent and not "fit" in so sir coke stood beside me . but now , all i am is a rebound. when sir pepsis not there, im the one sir coke talks to . Its different now . And everyday gets worse and worse. I hope you'll eventually know who you are, because you made a big mistake choosing sir pepsi over sir laura over here. Thanks for listening .

My "Beloved" Science Teacher

Okay to start this rant , I'm writing this in the computer lab at my school during 2nd period right now :D . ANYWAYS , All year , we (those of who have Ms. LEONARD) have been told that she was only a temporary teacher just filling in until we find a new science teacher since Mr. Privett retired . (His son died D:) and she was a sub before. WELL, since shes not a certified science teacher, we don't learn ANYTHING in her class! Shes such a moron -__- . She yells at people for talking , when she has no prooof that we're talking ! "you're mouth is open, that means you're talking" FIRST OF ALL LADY, our mouths could be open because we're hyperventilating from staring at her ... ugliness. You never know -.- . She even has a daughter that goes to our school , and i feel bad for her. Everyone hates her because shes the daughter of an ogre. Seriously though . I'm not trying to be funny. She's not getting fired because the assistant principal "has her back" . Even though there's been so many freaking complaints of her BS . I haven't learn a single thing since I've been in her class. I have to teach myself which is not a good idea whatsoever considering I'm sometimes a big idiot . Anyways, I can write a whole book on her stupid retarded ways of teaching and punishing all that stupid bull . BUT I'm in Geography , and this isn't something I'm supposed to be doing :) . Thanks for reading [x .

Freeedom < Prison

A couple months ago , I've been caught lying to hang out with a guy I had a "thing" with. Arent I stupid -____- ? Anyway , I got grounded for lying , which i was supposed to be grounded until the end of the year, but my parents gave me their trust back. Since i've been doing really good in school , they decided to take me off grounding and let me go out TWICE a month. I'm almost 14 and i have a lot of bestfriends that dont even go to the same school with me. Staying home , is like a prison, or a retirement home. I no longer have a life because I'm constantly on my laptop. I also recently got accepted to a magnet school and my parents are proud. I get over 100% on my tests , my parents are proud. Proud proud proud. Dont get me wrong , I love it when my parents are proud, but i need my freedom! Lifes not the same without it . Before i lied , my life was stress FREE. No drama, I had all the friends i needed, I was doing good in school, and i had a guy to call "mine" . But as sooon as i made that one little mistake of lying , i lost everything (except the grades). Everything fell apart. I hope i get my freedom back , because the teenage years are going to quickly go by and it feels good to make it the best years of your life before you go out in the world, and youre alone. BUT UNFORTUNATELY , i spend my days at home constantly doing something so i wont become a lunatic ! But in the meantime, i hope everything will go back to the way it is .