"wife"

friends come , friends go . some apologize & some just forget about it . well i have a problem . theres a friend of mine that we used to be really close even if we didnt see each other much but our friendship still meant something. but all you care about is your girlfriends and you just isolate all your friends away except just you and your girlfriend. its nice that you love her and all that but its stilll better to just keep in touch with us. including me , you faded from me, and you KNOW you did, yet you apologized , said youd get close, but look where we're standing. i bet you dont even remember anything about me anymore. apologize apologize apologize. thats all you do . but you dont even do anything. some friend you are . and when your girlfriend walks out on you , you'll probly have NO ONE to turn to except one friend from your school . and soon you might even lose her too . so great job pal . faded memories.

Middle School .

Do you remember elementary school? You worked all the way to become the top dogs of the school, and when youre finally all the way at the top youre like , "DANG , im a fifth grader. i rule this school" but then youre scared of next year; MIDDLE SCHOOL. And you worked that much just to be in the bottom again , in a whole new school with new things. Then when you worked three years with the new experiences, boys, drama, homework. Now youre an 8th grader. Theres 12 days left of 8th grade left .. and everyone is splitting up . You think about how amazing the three years were. Even if there was a year where you hated it, youll still miss it . I mean , youre only a kid once. In just one snap , youre growing so fast. I know forsure im going to miss those who arent gona be with me next year. What if you fade from them? I'm gona miss everyone. How they treated me, how i treated them. I'm going to miss Orchestra; working together to keep that pulse, that beating 'heart' . Going on trips like Disneyland and Universal Studios. I'm going to miss my orchestra teacher. The only teacher that seem to understand a kid's brain , how theyre thinking , and she's not afraid to show her true kid side. Only in her 20's , mature, but fun. Inspirational . Its crazy how you think that youre no longer going to school for 9 months with the friends you care about and hang out with. The thought of growing up . The thought of fading from everyone. The though of not being with those who have been there for you for all 3 years. Its insane. Its sad. I'm gona miss Ashley Ng, Ariana Grabowski, and Alexa Deguzman the most . Thats f'sure. Even though they cant read this right now , its true. You guys + those who are going to SW with me are the people who makes me actually want to go to school everyday . I love you guys <3 . Ima miss everyone next year >< .

Ashley B.

Do you remember elementary school? You worked all the way to become the top dogs of the school, and when youre finally all the way at the top youre like , "DANG , im a fifth grader. i rule this school" but then youre scared of next year; MIDDLE SCHOOL. And you worked that much just to be in the bottom again , in a whole new school with new things. Then when you worked three years with the new experiences, boys, drama, homework. Now youre an 8th grader. Theres 12 days left of 8th grade left .. and everyone is splitting up . You think about how amazing the three years were. Even if there was a year where you hated it, youll still miss it . I mean , youre only a kid once. In just one snap , youre growing so fast. I know forsure im going to miss those who arent gona be with me next year. What if you fade from them? I'm gona miss everyone. How they treated me, how i treated them. I'm going to miss Orchestra; working together to keep that pulse, that beating 'heart' . Going on trips like Disneyland and Universal Studios. I'm going to miss my orchestra teacher. The only teacher that seem to understand a kid's brain , how theyre thinking , and she's not afraid to show her true kid side. Only in her 20's , mature, but fun. Inspirational . Its crazy how you think that youre no longer going to school for 9 months with the friends you care about and hang out with. The thought of growing up . The thought of fading from everyone. The though of not being with those who have been there for you for all 3 years. Its insane. Its sad. I'm gona miss Ashley Ng, Ariana Grabowski, and Alexa Deguzman the most . Thats f'sure. Even though they cant read this right now , its true. You guys + those who are going to SW with me are the people who makes me actually want to go to school everyday . I love you guys <3 . Ima miss everyone next year >< .

letting goo

I've been through situations where i've held on to someone , but i ended up with nothing. i was told to fight for something that i love , and i did . but yet, i ended with nothing. And now , when I get into the same situation , i thought id learn my lesson with the past , but i didnt. I'm still holding on , i think of you every so often , but every so often turned out to be everyday . I miss everything you did to make me happy. I was living the good life, and in just ONE blink of an eye, E V E R Y T H I N G disappeared right from my hands. You , my freedom , my life . I always never stopped liking you, even when you told me all you want is to be "friends" . Is that your excuse? Are you just gona dump me and leave me here with nothing ? I actually liked you , when all those girls out there didnt . You made me happy, you were my first real relationship when we only had a thing. But now i just sit here, forced to just think of the memories, knowing i cant EVER go back to the way everything was. Its all memories now , nothing more . I cant let go .

Right Choices ..

right choices . hmm , what are right choices? when will you know theyre right ? how do you know theyre right? These questions of right choices, its mind-boggling. Sometimes i feel as if i made the completely wrong choice by taking that oppurtunity. and sometimes i made the right choice because it'll be a new experience. But no one knows the future, am i gona regret this choice? this almost always pops in my mind. but its all too late now because i made that choice, and i cant take it back . maybe itll be a good experience, maybe it was a complete stupid choice. but it has its advantanges. I dont knwo , honestly , we'll see.. Thanks for listening, even though you have no idea what my choice was or what this blog is mainly about, but you can get a good idea.