Killing me softly ,

What to do what to do . I'm so lost , i dont know what to do . Its like a big part of me just lost itself . I dont understand why its been so long. I dont understand why it just wont come back . Is it giving me hints that im not wanted anymore? Whats going on ? Its like a whiplash of downfall . Bad thing after bad thing. Tears every night, more frowns than grins. Why ? Why cant i just be happy ? Why must i put on a fake smile all the time to keep from people asking me whats wrong ? Why cant THAT person ask me . Do they not have a clue ? Do they not want to ? So many questions to ask , yet none can be answered . So many things to say, yet cant be said. So many things to do , yet cant be done . Why ?! Why is there a limit . Why must i have to wait for the change , for the different routine. Why cant it just be over and done with . I'm not making sense , because this whole problem , is just a big jumbled mess filled with the unanswered . But all i can really do is just sit here , doing nothing . absolutely nothing. Waiting as the days go by , counting the days. Waiting for a call, text , IM , or whatever. I'm not sure what to do . An involuntary feeling inside of me . I feel as if i should be the bigger person once again , and just say something and talk to you . But i cant . I'm forcing myself, yet its killing me inside.

ughh ,

today was an okay day rofl. the good thing was MARK AND MARIVIC ARE A HAPPY COUPLE <3 yeahh , HOSA was interesting w/ nadia (: . Hm , 2nd day of grounding . 19 more days to go , ;P . blahh so many projects and studying , so byee !


i miss my bestfriend :/

The Definition

The definition of Friends -
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement.

Hm , support
Where's your support ? Thanks ,

ashley n !

ashley : I hooked up Joey and Laura
I hooked EJ and Jennifer
I'm a hoooker !

ryan : youre a hooker ?!

ashley : WAIT !


LOL I LOVEE HERR <333

VMAs

MANNN , did you see Kanye diss Taylor Swift ?! FUCKING ASSHOLE ! WTF MAN . Yeah sure Beyonce had a nice music video , but EVERYONE deserves a chance to fucking win an award. SO STFU ! You embarassed Taylor ]:< . Shes TALENTED , and she has cute meanings to her songs . PSH , man , that hella pissed me off . Because he thinks hes so all that that he can just jump on stage and diss Taylor . I bet you youre racist Kanye. You didnt want a country white girl win an award ! AND FOR PEOPLE WHO DISAGREE WITH ME I DONT NEED YOUR MEAN COMMENTS CUS IM JUST EXPRESSING MY THOUGHTS . Anyways , fuck Kanye . Aye Kanye, i have a diss for you . I DONT LIKE YOUR MUSIC . ITS A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT . , except for goodlife. LOL ! I support you Taylor ! <3

what , the , hell .

isnt it amazing how like our conversations just get dull and dull . I'm gona slowwwwly , stop doing everything first . soooo yeah !


anyways, ugh . so many projects . lamelamelame.
gaygaygay


but on the brighside ; i like joey dechavez :]

WHAT

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FRIED

RICE

MAAAAANNNN .



Volleyball today [x , & i can tell you , i am NOT good at serving !
& i cant find my stupid locker . fried ricing rice .

nae meng ;]

oh pish posh . I LOVE YOU MUCHOO GRANDEEE , BIEN BIEN . idk
ROFL . Whats taesbo ?