I cant be anymore speechless ..

I say that i'm over it , but im not. i say that i dont like you anymore, i still do . It hurts to see you with someone else. The way you looked at me today, the way i looked at you just brought me flashbacks when we were still us. it didnt last long, maybe only like a month ? but the first few weeks i was picked up by you . i liked some guy in the beginning of the year, & he totally wasnt interested & i was hurt. but YOU picked me up back on my feeet, & showed me something that no other guy has showed me before, EFFORT . You made an effort to always keep me happy, to make me trust you, to make me like you & i didnt appreciate ANY of it. All the things you did for me. I blew you off when you were about to ask me . How heartless can i get ? & Now , i pay the price . Watching you 'love' her. I just want to ask you if you miss me, if you miss us. It hurts, why are you two working out, but we didnt? It seems like youre more happier than her? Why ? I feel as if i regret letting you go. I dont want to say anything because i dont want you think im jealous or that i want you back . So many unanswered questions ): i just want an answer ..