letting goo

I've been through situations where i've held on to someone , but i ended up with nothing. i was told to fight for something that i love , and i did . but yet, i ended with nothing. And now , when I get into the same situation , i thought id learn my lesson with the past , but i didnt. I'm still holding on , i think of you every so often , but every so often turned out to be everyday . I miss everything you did to make me happy. I was living the good life, and in just ONE blink of an eye, E V E R Y T H I N G disappeared right from my hands. You , my freedom , my life . I always never stopped liking you, even when you told me all you want is to be "friends" . Is that your excuse? Are you just gona dump me and leave me here with nothing ? I actually liked you , when all those girls out there didnt . You made me happy, you were my first real relationship when we only had a thing. But now i just sit here, forced to just think of the memories, knowing i cant EVER go back to the way everything was. Its all memories now , nothing more . I cant let go .